Lately I feel like I’ve become a marathon runner. Life has been kind of crazy busy these last couple of months. I keep saying it’s partly because it’s summer, partly because we are not the type to just sit around, and partly because we now have a 3rd little guy (and sometimes a dog) that tags along with us wherever we go.
But when I stop and think about it, I know it is not going to change. Summer will turn into fall and then winter where we will be busy with the holidays, then it will be a new year and we will be celebrating birthdays and then spring will turn into summer again and the cycle keeps going. We will always be planning something. And Jacob (and Apollo) are not going anywhere anytime soon (not that I want them to).
But then I really stop and think about it and if I had a choice…I wouldn’t change a thing. It is all good stuff. Sure it is a lot of work, but it is fun. Our lives have been filled to the brim with mini vacations, long vacations, having people over, going to friends houses, birthdays, pool dates with neighbors, photography sessions, BBQ’s, catching up with old friends who are in town, being with family, zoo dates, church, work, girls night, beach days, parties, baby play dates, golf tournaments, and on and on and on……
I find myself often saying I just want a day to relax and not have to worry about going somewhere or getting ready for anything, or packing and unpacking and doing laundry after a trip, but at the same time, I find myself filling up the empty days in my calendar with things to do. I remember a time when I was feeling a hole in my life, I was feeling like I was stuck in a rut and didn’t see any way out of it. We were just as busy then as we are now, but a (big) part of me was just not happy, I knew I wanted more. Now that I have our precious little boy, I find that I often remind myself of that time whenever I am feeling overwhelmed or stressed out or feeling like I want to lock myself up in my house and turn off my cell phone and computer for a few days.
It is all good stuff. I am full. Sure, I am tired, I am sick of doing laundry, and I would love a massage or just an afternoon of sipping a girly drink with an umbrella while floating on a raft in the pool (which I actually got to do for about 5 minutes two weekends ago before Jacob woke up from his nap, it was a glorious 5 minutes!) But again, I wouldn’t change a thing. Life is good, it’s crazy, sometimes I have to remind myself to breathe when looking at my calendar, but it is filled with life. I am full. And I wouldn’t change a thing.
Because of all our fullness, I am behind on posting Jacob’s weekly photos, so here they are.
- When Justin comes home from work, he has started “jumping” out of my arms and reaching for Justin. The first time he did that, both our hearts just melted!
- He is giving kisses now, granted, they are wet, slobbery, open mouthed, but they are kisses 🙂
- He is finally getting a tooth in! I can feel the sharpness of it in his gums, but it hasn’t actually popped up yet, I’m sure it will soon.
- Last week we brought him to my office and weighed him and he is now a little over 18 lbs. We are convinced he grew an inch in the last few weeks too, since we noticed his legs are definitely longer.