How are you REALLY feeling?

I had a friend ask me the other day how I was REALLY feeling, they didn’t want the ‘I’m fine‘ sugarcoated version, they wanted details.  I am finding that is a common question I am asked these days.  And I can honestly say that right now at 15 weeks 3 days and in the beginning of my 2nd trimester, I feel great!

I do have to say that I was pretty lucky I did not get as sick during my first trimester as some women do.  I had my share of nausea for about 2 weeks. Otherwise I really didn’t have any kind of appetite, nothing sounded good and if I finally decided to eat something, once it was in front of me it no longer was appealing.  At least I was not hugging the toilet for 3 months, that would have been miserable. The one thing that I did not (and still don’t) have any desire to eat is red meat (except for In N Out, I can eat that anytime!)  We love to BBQ a tri tip for dinner especially during the warm summer months, but we haven’t done that this summer.  It is really hard on Justin since we have a freezer full of grass fed beef from my parents cattle ranch and he is chomping at the bit to cook it up.  One night I told him to go ahead and make himself a steak for dinner, I ended up having to take the dog out for a walk while he cooked because I couldn’t stand the smell.  It just blows my mind how one little tiny thing can blow your whole body out of whack!

I did, however, have a BIG struggle with fatigue.  I simply could NOT stay awake.  When I got up in the morning and got ready for work, there were times when I had to lie down and rest before I could leave for work.  Then somehow I managed to drag through the day and once I got home most of the time I never made it out of my work clothes, or even made it upstairs to bed, I just made a beeline from the garage to the couch and promptly fell asleep.  That nap didn’t usually last long because the dog would start bugging me to take him out on a walk, and those days his walks were very short.  Once we got home I immediately went back to sleep until Justin came home from work.  Then I would wake up and talk to him for a bit and then go upstairs to bed for the night. I had zero energy and everything seemed like such a chore to do.

Finally, about 2 weeks ago, I feel like I woke up out of a 3 month fog, now I can actually go a full day without a nap.  I have energy again! My appetite has come back full force and other than a little bulge in the belly, I feel normal.  I have been putting off buying maternity clothes and I don’t think I can get away with that much longer, my clothes are getting pretty uncomfortable.  So I see a shopping spree in the near future! The one complaint I had was I was having difficulty getting comfortable sleeping at night, so a friend told me to get a body pillow, not just a regular body pillow but a super special one, which I did, and now am a proud owner of a bed raft and I am sleeping like a baby!

One really awesome thing about pregnancy is my nails.  I have never had strong nails and when I was younger I used to drive my mother crazy by chewing my nails.  Even if they did get long, they would break off the minute I touched something.  I always wanted to have beautiful long nails, real ones.  When I started taking prenatal vitamins in 2009 they helped a little, but nothing to get excited about.  Now, that I am actually pregnant, I can tell you it is not the prenatal vitamins alone, it is a combo of those with a growing baby that make your nails super strong. They are out of control, I almost don’t know what to do with them.  I’ve never been in the habit of needing to trim or file my nails since I didn’t have any to do that to.  Now I do and I love it!  So I am sleeping well, eating, awake and have nice long, strong nails, life is good!  Here’s my 15 week belly.


14 Weeks & Bed Raft

AT&T has been down in our area since Thursday so we have not had any cable or internet for 2 and a half days. To tell you the truth I actually enjoyed not having TV, but the internet is a different story.  It really made me realize how much we rely on the internet.  If I didn’t have my iPhone I probably would have gone to the library or Kinkos to get online.  We’ve seen AT&T trucks across the street working over the last 2 days and about two hours ago when I was walking the dog, I walked by and the guy looked at me warily (I’m sure he’s had many people approach him) and I just smiled and said ‘so…is there any hope?’ He laughed and said ‘yes, there’s hope’.  He asked me a few questions and told me to try a few things which I did with no luck, he looked up our address and said he would work on it and about 10 minutes later we were back online, TV and all!  It helps to make friends on the street while walking the dog 🙂

Anyway, my point is, I haven’t been able to post about our latest appointment.  Thursday afternoon I had my 14 week appointment (technically I was 13 weeks 6 days).  It was a really quick appointment, all my numbers are good and we got to hear the heartbeat again!  Our next appointment is going to be the fetal anatomy scan, which I am really looking forward to and we will have lots more to share then.

Right now I have a house full of men playing poker, Justin is realizing his days of having loud guys in the house late at night are numbered, so we’ve had quite a few poker nights lately.  Thankfully the internet is back on so I am able to get all my stuff done in the comfort of my bed raft.  Which, by the way, is Justin’s name for the new body pillow I bought.  I LOVE it!  I was having a hard time getting comfortable sleeping so I found this amazing pillow on Amazon and it was on sale, with free shipping and arrived the next day!  They must take orders from pregnant women pretty seriously!  When I’m not cozy in the bed raft, Apollo is.


We have a pretty wonderful & crazy group of friends.  Each and every one of us is so unique in our own way but we all “mesh” together perfectly.  It all started in college, actually the guys were all in the same fraternity, and most of the wives were in different sororities or attended SDSU as well.  Even the wives who didn’t attend SDSU that married into our group fit us like a glove and it feels like we’ve known them for just as long.  So our memories start in the college years, after graduating most of us stayed in San Diego and got started in our careers and establishing the foundation for our future.  Some were roommates and we continued to stay close celebrating achievements, milestones, birthdays, holidays, taking trips together or just getting together for some plain old fashioned fun which was often.  Then the engagements started and we were throwing engagement parties left and right, then came all the bachelor parties, bachelorette parties, bridal showers and of course the weddings.  By the way, one time I sat down and made a list of all the weddings Justin and I have been to and the total came to a whopping 33 weddings (including our own of course)!  Some of those were family, other friends and co-workers, but the vast majority of them were our college friends. Those wedding years were a blast, full of fun, celebration and lots of dancing!  Then we started buying homes and settling in which meant housewarming parties.  Then the babies started coming and the baby showers and the 1 year old birthday parties, then baby #2.  The point I am trying to get across is these friends mean so much to us, they are our San Diego family.  Over the years a few have moved away from San Diego, but continue to stay close and we still see them often.  We’ve all been through so much in life together and have been there to support each other, celebrate each other and I don’t know what we would do without them.

That leads me to the topic of this post, girlfriends!  I love my group of girlfriends and I look forward to our girls night whether it is book club, movies, happy hour or just getting together and talking for hours on end.  At this moment in life I am realizing even more how much my girlfriends mean to me.

There are 3 of us in our group who do not yet have kids and all 3 of us are pregnant for the first time together!  How cool is that!  We are sharing this journey to motherhood and have each other to talk to, compare notes, freak out, and marvel at the little beings growing in us.  The other two girls are 5 weeks ahead of me and have the same due date 🙂

And the other cool thing is we have the rest of our group of girlfriends who are already moms to one or two kids of their own to support us and cheer us on along the way, here we are (minus a few).
We are truly blessed!  One of my biggest hopes for our child is that they find a great group of friends to share life with when they grow up, it makes all the difference in the world!

The Baby Project

When we were going through the process of starting a family, I was doing research and scouring the Internet for information (I now have a degree in Google!) I found so much information in other people’s blogs where they shared their stories, it was a personal way to relate and connect with others who were dealing with the same frustrations rather than reading all the impersonal medical language that just states the facts.  Yes, the facts are important, but when you are dealing with something that  involves many different variables among different couples, it helps to find someone that has a similar story to you and you’ll learn things that the medical world won’t necessarily tell you.

Looking back on this and rewriting our story for the last 3 years is really kind of crazy.  I remember doing all these things, feeling the emotions, sorting through all the information, wondering if we were ever going to have children and in the end it was all worth it.  I hope that our story provides some kind of hope or comfort to others who may be struggling through this.  I am not looking for any kind of sympathy or a pat on the back from anyone.  As I said, I found  comfort in other people’s blogs and stories and I hope to return the favor.  We don’t get to choose our path in life, but we can choose how we walk the path.  I never thought we would be on this path to start a family, but by leaning on God we held hands and walked the walk.   It makes our baby that much more special to us.

A woman I talked to who also went through her own fertility struggles once told me, don’t worry about the traditional way of doing things, sometimes you have to step outside the box to get the family you dreamed of.  She said this to me 2 weeks before I was starting my IVF medications, and it stuck with me.  A big part of this struggle was coming to terms with the fact that we could not conceive our baby the “traditional way”.  Medicine has come a long way and it is amazing what fertility specialists can do now.   I would not change a thing.  Yeah, it would’ve been nice to not have to deal with all this, but this whole process taught us a lot, and we learned so much about each other that we may never have learned.  It brought us closer than I thought was even possible and I am so thankful for that.

So I added our story “The Baby Project”, you can find it here, or by clicking “The Baby Project” at the top of the page. If you read it, get comfortable, it’s long, it covers 3 years of our lives.

Starting off summer

We had a pretty fun week celebrating the 4th of July and starting off our summer.

For the 4th we spent the day at the bay with some friends.  Despite the cold weather we were determined to stick it out and kept hoping the sun would break through the clouds.  It never did…but we enjoyed each others company, BBQed and the kids entertained us with their playground antics and dance moves.  I was too cold to take many pictures, but here’s one of the guys.

Over the weekend, we drove to Balboa Island for our annual summer weekend.  We started it off with a family dinner.

And it wouldn’t be a trip to Balboa without one of their Balboa Bars for dessert

It really is a fun relaxing time reading, playing cards, walking around the island, lounging on the beach watching the boats go by.  Here’s our view just steps away from the cottage.

To end the weekend we cruise the bay in an electric duffy boat to ohhh and ahhh at the big beautiful homes and yachts.

The best part of this week is I am now officially 12 weeks and just started sporting a little belly!

Happy Summer!